E took his first steps...

...last Friday at Seward Church. It was during prayer so I had to contain my excitement. Jake missed it. I find it interesting that E's first real steps happened on the same night as our first time at Seward. It is a small, newish church within walking distance. They have a heart for community and justice and loving Jesus, of course! We don't know what we're looking for, but we'll go again. We've also been to a Messianic place a couple of times which is very interesting. I love the idea of it, but just can't imagine anywhere being "home" right now.

I feel like everything I thought about God has been torn down and needs to be rebuilt. It's hard recovering from abuse done in the name of God. I am not bitter or unforgiving, just recovering. Just figuring out who He is and learning to just rest in His love, with no doctrine or proof texting getting in the way. I feel stuck some days.